Last day blues
Jun. 29th, 2018 12:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
selenayIt's the last day at my current job and I'm sadder than expected. Not so much about the job - I'm really excited to not be doing this job because I'd been getting frustrated with doing the same thing for so long - but it's the people.
I'm going to miss my coworkers a lot. Yes, even the frustrating ones. I don't think you can spend eight hours a day, for almost ten years, with a group of people and not end up being friends with them. I've been used to coming into work and getting to spend time with friends every day. I won't be doing that any more, at least not with this particular group of people.
The actual leaving part hasn't really hit yet. I'm sure it won't really hit for a few days. At least I don't feel like I'm diving on a cliff, because my new job starts in a month so I'm between jobs rather than unemployed.
But saying goodbye to everyone is hitting, because we're promising to stay in touch but the reality is that often people don't. I hope that doesn't happen, at least with the people I'm closest to. I'm aware that it can, and it's sad. The last time I left a job, it was such a toxic place that I almost danced on my way out (even though I was also aware that I'd miss my friends there), but this job has never been toxic. It's been frustrating sometimes, very stressful at other times, but I've never dreaded going in and we've always found a way to laugh about the things happening around us. It's been the people who made it a good place to work and they've been good people. Walking out for the last time is going to be a very strange and unsettling feeling, I suspect.
Tomorrow I plan to sleep. A lot.
I'm going to miss my coworkers a lot. Yes, even the frustrating ones. I don't think you can spend eight hours a day, for almost ten years, with a group of people and not end up being friends with them. I've been used to coming into work and getting to spend time with friends every day. I won't be doing that any more, at least not with this particular group of people.
The actual leaving part hasn't really hit yet. I'm sure it won't really hit for a few days. At least I don't feel like I'm diving on a cliff, because my new job starts in a month so I'm between jobs rather than unemployed.
But saying goodbye to everyone is hitting, because we're promising to stay in touch but the reality is that often people don't. I hope that doesn't happen, at least with the people I'm closest to. I'm aware that it can, and it's sad. The last time I left a job, it was such a toxic place that I almost danced on my way out (even though I was also aware that I'd miss my friends there), but this job has never been toxic. It's been frustrating sometimes, very stressful at other times, but I've never dreaded going in and we've always found a way to laugh about the things happening around us. It's been the people who made it a good place to work and they've been good people. Walking out for the last time is going to be a very strange and unsettling feeling, I suspect.
Tomorrow I plan to sleep. A lot.
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Date: 2018-07-06 03:45 pm (UTC)I still can't believe I was there for so long, but it does explain why it felt like such a major moment.
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