On my own...
Nov. 26th, 2017 03:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
selenayMum flew back to the UK last night and the house feels weirdly empty. It's the usual post-visit low and I know that I'll get back into the swing of things quickly, but it's still kind of odd and sad, particularly as I usually spend a part of her visit each year being irritated at not having the house to myself.
I think the problem is that everyone is so far away. We did the weekly family Skype today and there was Mum and Dad in their house, and my sister and brother-in-law in their house, and me in my house three thousand miles away. That was actually depressing in a way, because I know that I can't just hop on a train or bus to see them when I get lonely and miss them. My house is empty and there's no one to rattle about in it with me, and that made me a bit sad.
It'll get better. I know it will.
But damn, I miss my family. They were making Christmas plans and talking about meeting up for things and I'm all the way over here where I can't be a part of that.
Oh well. Nothing I can do about that right now. I've just got to get myself back into the swing of life here again and relearn the ways of feeling less alone.
I've got a ton of films I want to see over the next few weeks. I really need to get the mince pie production line going. I've got a couple of short FutureLearn courses to finish. My reading plans were terribly neglected while Mum was here, so I need to get that back on track. I've got Yuletide fic to write.
Honestly, over the next few weeks I'll hopefully be too busy to miss my family!
I think the problem is that everyone is so far away. We did the weekly family Skype today and there was Mum and Dad in their house, and my sister and brother-in-law in their house, and me in my house three thousand miles away. That was actually depressing in a way, because I know that I can't just hop on a train or bus to see them when I get lonely and miss them. My house is empty and there's no one to rattle about in it with me, and that made me a bit sad.
It'll get better. I know it will.
But damn, I miss my family. They were making Christmas plans and talking about meeting up for things and I'm all the way over here where I can't be a part of that.
Oh well. Nothing I can do about that right now. I've just got to get myself back into the swing of life here again and relearn the ways of feeling less alone.
I've got a ton of films I want to see over the next few weeks. I really need to get the mince pie production line going. I've got a couple of short FutureLearn courses to finish. My reading plans were terribly neglected while Mum was here, so I need to get that back on track. I've got Yuletide fic to write.
Honestly, over the next few weeks I'll hopefully be too busy to miss my family!
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Date: 2017-11-27 06:50 pm (UTC)I am sorry you are missing them :/
I'm doing xmas on my own this year, and looking forward to time to read all the yuletidey goodness.
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Date: 2017-11-29 04:00 pm (UTC)Having a quiet day to read all the Yuletide fic is a plus point to Christmas on your own!