An optomist speaks

[selenay]

Yesterday someone stole half my spoons, making it a very unpleasant day.

Today I have a couple more spoons, but the cutlery drawer isn't exactly overflowing. I probably have three-quarters of my usual spoons. The day should have been easier and it's true that right now I'm working away, feeling tired and sleepy but better than yesterday.

The problem is that I might have been optimistic about the "it's just fatigue, not a virus" thing. Either that or my asmtha has decided to be triggered by fatigue :-(

It crept up and surprised me. One minute I was plugging away with my work, then I noticed that I was coughing a little bit and then - maybe five minutes later - I realised that not only was I coughing a lot, but I was also struggling to catch my breath after each cough and my lungs were filling with liquid.

I've learned my lesson so my asthma meds were sitting in my handbag. I made a trip to the bathroom to take my inhalers (where my boss caught me - her daughter apparently has asthma so she understands) and ten minutes later it was pretty much over. Not a full attack because I'd caught it in time, but I know what it would have turned into given another ten minutes without meds. Three hours later I'm still at my desk, my lungs have stayed fairly clear and I'm mostly just headachey and sore throat-ey. And really tired.

I just can't decide whether I'd prefer this to be a virus or a new thing that fatigue does to me.

Perhaps I'll give knitting a miss tonight and spend the evening curled up in bed.

Comments

[sunlightdances.livejournal.com]

Yesterday someone stole half my spoons, making it a very unpleasant day.
I love that I instantly knew what that meant. *rolls eyes* Oh, internet. <3

Also - *squish* I'm sorry things are low and bad right now.

[selenay]

I love that I instantly knew what that meant. *rolls eyes* Oh, internet. <3

We have a common framework to discuss this through, which I think is excellent even if it is occasionally a little scary to realise that we *need* that framework.

Also - *squish* I'm sorry things are low and bad right now.

Thanks. It'll get better, it always does, but you know how it goes. The promise of better later never quite makes up for icky miserable right now.

[sunlightdances.livejournal.com]

The promise of better later never quite makes up for icky miserable right now.

Nup.

[paranoidangel]

*hugs* I remember what feeling that tired was like, even if for me it just lasted a few months and went away again.

Can you not take your inhaler at your desk? I do all the time. Well, when I remember that's what you're supposed to do when you can't breathe - I always forget that it actually works.

[selenay]

{{hugs}}Your BT traumas sound absolutely horrendous!

I'm always embarrassed by the part where people ask what's wrong, so I sneak off to the bathroom and try to sort it out on my own because it's *way* less embarrassing for me. I have no idea why I feel that way because I have no problem sharing on LJ and I probably should alert someone just in case the attack gets worse and I can't get out of the bathroom again. I'm just crazy.

I got a parcel today :-) Thank you so much! My journey to and from work is going to be great for the next couple of days :-)

[paranoidangel]

Asthma at least is something that a lot of people know exists. Mind you, we are all really informal in our office and quite happily sit at our desks taking inhalers, cough medicine and pills!

I'm glad to hear the parcel got there! And those audios won't last one journey each! There's a new Seven & Ace audio due out now-ish and I have another audio I didn't think to copy, so you might well get another parcel soon too :)