A whine

[selenay]

If it weren't for the fact that I am leaving anyway in two months, I would
be handing in my notice right now. It is impossible to plan anything in the
evenings with this job. If it were a late night every now and again then I
wouldn't mind. But it's a late night every other night and I can always
guarantee that if I want to be home in time to do something after work, that
will be the night that I have to stay two hours late.

Surely other people actually get to plan to do things after work? The odd
cancellation would be fine, but I have stopped even bothering to think about
going out after work because I hate having to let people down all the time.
And as for actually making it to my weekly phone call with historyterry...

Sadly, a lot of my local friends fill their weekends with boyfriend activity
so my social life is severely curtailed by all this.

I also seem to be only able to sleep when I am so exhausted I don't know
what to do with myself. I had a lovely relaxing bank holiday and felt really
good, so I didn't sleep much at all for the last two nights as payment. Now
I'm back to being so shattered that I was bouncing off walls this morning
and needed a large mug of insanely strong coffee to get going. And I was
still half asleep on the motorway. I predict that I will be needing the
caffiene pills again to get home safely tonight but I hate taking them
because I know they aren't helping with the insomnia.

The exhaustion is also ensuring that my IBS is playing up so I'm exhausted
and nauseous and just waiting for the stomach cramps to start.

Part of me wants to enjoy the time I have in England and not miss a single
thing. Another part of me just can't wait for the job part of England to be
over. There is no way that I am taking another job like this when I get to
Canada.

*sigh*

There are Krispy Kremes on the desk behind me, left for my team by a
grateful colleague. But I am too exhausted and icky to face the thought of
donuts. Poor uneaten donuts.

Comments

[historyterry.livejournal.com]

For what it's worth, I do understand. A number of my jobs in London involved getting in at 8am, and leaving at 7:15pm, frequently five days a week. That meant up to fourteen hours a day out of the house, including the commute. One job even had me coming in odd weekends for no pay. And the people I met there were not people I generally had contact with, due to having little in common - or they were too busy with their partners and/or kids. The few guys I did get invited to go out with, I often couldn't due to being too overworked, or too tired. It went with the good wage, but I've suffered from it.

So, I understand the odd missed phone call, and the tiredness, and the illness, and the frustration that IT jobs involve.

Um. I will also be tired tonight, so don't mind if it's just a quick call. I'm feeling particularly run down right now, but it'd be great to hear from you. Failing that, I still get to see you next week, right? And it's not that far away.

Hoping the rest of your day goes a darn sight better.

Txx

[selenay]

Thanks for the chat tonight, I do feel rather better for having a laugh at silly stuff. I think it helped more than ranting would have done.

I know you understand when I have to postpone, but I hate having to do it. If it were once a month or so then I wouldn't get so fed up, but it's not. We've only had two postponements this month. If I had actually had anything planned this month with local friends then I can almost guarantee that I would have had a few more. The only reason that I got to Fairport was because I made it damned obvious that this was something I was not missing and I asked Da Boss to ensure that I could get there. He wasn't happy and he won't often make that kind of effort.

I've always promised myself that I would never let a job become so important that I sacrificed friends and family to it. At the end of the day, nobody ever says "I wish I'd spent more time at work" later in life. So I will be trying to make sure that I'm not in this kind of situation again.

[wadjet-theperv.livejournal.com]

*hugsyou* That sucks. I hope you can manage to sort at least some of the crap out very soon.

As for this though,

***Part of me wants to enjoy the time I have in England and not miss a single thing. ***

it would be all I could do to not just walk, tell them to shove it and take the next flight out! Knowing that I was going 'home' for good in only two months, I dont think I'd be able to take it. I'd be away. The company you're working for are very lucky you're working out your notice. They should treat you much better.

Feel better soon.

[selenay]

I hope you can manage to sort at least some of the crap out very soon.

Thank you. The crap will be sorted out on 25th July when I walk out of the building for the last time!

The company you're working for are very lucky you're working out your notice.

I'd love to be the kind of person who could walk without working my notice, but I'm too straight-laced and feel too responsible for the people that I'm leaving behind. It's not a good combination :-)

[wadjet-theperv.livejournal.com]

I'd love to be the kind of person who could walk without working my notice, but I'm too straight-laced and feel too responsible for the people that I'm leaving behind. It's not a good combination :-)***

Indeed you are, and it's one of the reasons I like you. I do sympathise, and I'd love to say I'd be the same way, but although I'd like to think I wouldn't, given the right motivation, I think I would!