Final day of the holiday
Nov. 25th, 2007 08:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
selenayToday is the final day of my holiday and it's nearly over. I'm starting to get that "Oh, god, work tomorrow, crap" feeling and wishing that I didn't have to go back.
However, today has been fun and included cake and pressies and food with favourite relatives so at least the holiday ended on a high.
The best bits about the holiday have been doing things at my own pace and not feeling crap all the time. I've been doing as much writing as I want, I've pottered around in various places and been out for long walks most days. My back hasn't hurt anything like as much as it usually does, which has left me feeling better in myself and less exhausted. There's a part of me wondering whether there's any point in pushing myself out to work every day if not going to work leaves me feeling so much better, but then I remember the whole independence thing and my determination not to let current difficulties control my life. So I know that I won't be giving up work even though it really is tempting sitting here feeling happy and rested and pain-free for the first time in months.
Maybe someone will pay me lots of money for Sensible Man and I won't have to work any more. Pigs may also fly :-) I shall write for a few more minutes and then go downstairs to watch Cranford with the family. Thankfully it's now a month until Christmas and I have the whole seasonal period off work. Yay!
However, today has been fun and included cake and pressies and food with favourite relatives so at least the holiday ended on a high.
The best bits about the holiday have been doing things at my own pace and not feeling crap all the time. I've been doing as much writing as I want, I've pottered around in various places and been out for long walks most days. My back hasn't hurt anything like as much as it usually does, which has left me feeling better in myself and less exhausted. There's a part of me wondering whether there's any point in pushing myself out to work every day if not going to work leaves me feeling so much better, but then I remember the whole independence thing and my determination not to let current difficulties control my life. So I know that I won't be giving up work even though it really is tempting sitting here feeling happy and rested and pain-free for the first time in months.
Maybe someone will pay me lots of money for Sensible Man and I won't have to work any more. Pigs may also fly :-) I shall write for a few more minutes and then go downstairs to watch Cranford with the family. Thankfully it's now a month until Christmas and I have the whole seasonal period off work. Yay!
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Date: 2007-11-25 09:07 pm (UTC)I'm glad you had a good long holiday, and so sorry it's coming to a close for you. At least you've discovered that you CAN feel better if you could somehow destress a bit. Thus giving you more of a reason to keep doing it.
Speaking of stress--ACK, Christmas! I love this season, but there are just so many things to DO! (g)
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Date: 2007-11-26 07:40 pm (UTC)It's a relief to know that, when I eventually have a less stressful job with less commute, things should get easier. Knowing that there can be times when I feel better helps a lot, even though that makes it harder to get myself back to my job at the moment! Still, I get to hand in my resignation and run away to Canada in seven months so it's not forever.
I love Christmas, but the thing that's been making work extra-stressful is a project to manage Christmas better. It feels way too close to be Christmas because of the whole deadline thing. At the same time, I'm looking forward to the Christmas break. Conflicted is me.