Grrrr

[selenay]

Dear new guy who sits next to me,

Blow your nose and quit with the sniffing before I kill you.

No love,
Me.


Dear crappy IT systems,

All I want to do is schedule some tasks to run at 6am in the quiet
time so that some of my reports run. Is that too much to ask? If
you'll just work then I won't need to come in at 7.15am on a Monday to
get those reports running and I might even get to go home at a
sensible time.

Kind thanks,
Me.


Can you tell what kind of mood I'm in today?

Comments

[riverfox.livejournal.com]

::hands Sel a disintegrator pistol:: It's really cool. They reintegrate only when they've done what you asked. ;) I share you grrrrrrrr today, hun.

[selenay]

::accepts disintegrator pistol, grinning insanely::

It might be the only solution with him. I'm a little too polite to throw Kleenex at him and hope he'll take the hint - darn me. And as for those IT systems....grrrr.

Thanks, hon.

How is the job going? Or is that what's producing the grr?

[riverfox.livejournal.com]

Your very welcome. ;)

As for the job, yeah, producing great quantities of grrrrrrrrrrr. I split open a callus on my index finger on Friday so I have to keep a bandaid on it all the time. Am still looking for another job but the temp services I applied to (Kelly) is holding off on job assistance until I get my DD214 in the mail. It's the form that says I was in the Army and when I was discharged and whether or not it was honorable. *snort* I thought I had my own copy but I couldn't find the dratted thing so I had to send for a copy. Fcol. It's always something. ::sighs::

How're your legs?

[selenay]

*sigh* Sounds like you're not having fun with all that. Still, at least Kelly should start working for you when you've got that form. I guess that's a small thing.

My legs and back are...well, I've been making another attempt at stopping the painkillers this weekend. Yesterday was fine but my back was pretty sore all night and I've not had a great day with it, getting the pains down my legs when I sit too long. Bleh. So I'll be back on the damn things again tomorrow because I need to be able to function at work. I'm starting to resign myself to the fact that this is probably as good as I'm going to get, but it's not easy. My hip is a bastard, my back is crapped out and somehow it all seemed much easier a year ago when I 'just' had fibro!

[riverfox.livejournal.com]

::hugs you fiercely::
I hate it, knowing that pain will never go away. I wish there was something else they could try for you, like chiro or acu. Or have you done those already? Chiro works for me but soon I'll have to pay for it myself and I don't have medical insurance. :( Anyhow, I really feel with you, sweetie. I hated taking those stupid painkillers as they messed me up badly. Now it's just muscle relaxers and a lot of ibuprofen(but not too much*g*). Not a hell of a lot of choices when you can't tolerate that back pain for long. I know I can't. :( ::hugs you again::

[selenay]

Well, physio hasn't done much for my hip or my back and I'm currently doing accupuncture. The acu has got me to the stage where I'm pretty comfortable while on painkillers, which is why I keep attempting to come off them. Except the acu isn't working well enough to make that possible, apparently. I know that it's working to a degree because before it, even on my really strong painkillers, I wasn't doing particularly well, but it's not working as well as we'd hoped.

I think we're starting to get to the stage where we've tried most things and we're running out of ideas. I feel guilty because I should be able to tolerate it - I feel like I'm getting less resistant to the pain rather than more. It seems absolutely crazy to me. I mean, I managed to put up with pain that with some hindsight was utterly ridiculous and now I can't tolerate something that's probably ten times less intense. It's daft and I veer between feeling guilty for not being able to drop the painkillers and resentment that anyone thinks I should just live with the pain. Neither emotion is particularly helpful, I think.

The hugs are welcome, though. I just wish that I could make it all stop and go back to how things used to be.

And then I wish that I weren't always boring my friends with all the whining :-)

[riverfox.livejournal.com]

Oh stop it, silly. You're not whining. Bitch all you want. :))) Scream even. Just don't hit the computer. :-p