Minor observation

[selenay]

It always surprises me how noticable it is when pain goes away, even if you haven't been completely aware of it before taking the painkillers. There's an odd feeling of relief as that dull ache goes away that suddenly makes you aware that part of your attention was on the pain for several hours.

I'm having an achey day today. My hip is hurting, but then so are both knees and the other hip as well as my back and legs. For some unknown reason I didn't sleep well last night and I think that's why I'm feeling a little crappy today. Sitting through some terminally dull meetings this morning probably hasn't helped :-)


The latest news on the hip situation is that wires got crossed on the physio so no appointment has been made and the medical insurer is unlikely to finance any private treatment. I'm starting to get dreadfully confused by it all so I'm planning to write a letter to the doc tonight because I always explain better on paper. I need to ask him some questions about exactly what is happening so that I can made a decision about what I do. The most important thing is to find out whether he's put me NHS or private for the specialist - I think that I'll be changing to NHS whatever happens because the insurer won't give me the go ahead until after I've seen him. I can't afford to have private treatment and then not get reimbursed by the insurer, so although it will be slower at least I'll feel happier in my mind about the costs. The physio is a slightly more difficult problem. I can't afford private treatment so, again, it's probably going to have to be NHS. Except the physio at my surgery only runs clinics on a Thursday lunchtime and I work too far away to make that feasible. Company, obviously, won't let me have days off for physio. I need to find out from the doc whether I can get away with no getting any physio, whether he thinks there will be any long-term consequences and if it's absolutely neccessary whether he can recommend anyone close to where I work. Oh, and whether I'm likely to be able to drive after physio if I have to have it up here because there's no point in doing the physio and then to being able to get home. My experience of physio is that it's painful and exhausting, which concerns me a little :-(

So I have to get some straight answers from the doc about what's happening, what I need, what I can afford to wait on and then I can make some decisions. Last night, after some confusing talks with the doc and the insurer, I was ready to hand in the towel and just cancel all treatments for the hip. Then I got up this morning, went "ow" and revised my ideas. But I'm starting to worry about how I can balance my job (long hours, long commute and still in the probation period where they can fire me easily) with getting my hip sorted out. Damn, I hate worrying about this stuff :-(

Comments

[gmul.livejournal.com]

Eeep! I can't offer much except a general hope that everything gets sorted out as soon as possible but I shall continue to do that small thing!

[selenay]

Thanks :-) Getting things sorted would be good, but I'm adjusting to things and it's not going to kill me, so I'm feeling happier about letting it happen when it happens rather than getting stressed. At least, that's what I'm telling myself :-)

[historyterry.livejournal.com]

Hugs, sweetie, and if you want to rant about stuff you know where I am.

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[selenay]

Thanks, hon :-) I'm feeling a little less ranty today - I was tired and depressed yesterday. Today I'm tired, feeling icky but strangely feeling happier despite it. Hmm.