Updatey thing

[selenay]

Today I'm feeling pretty tired, but that could be the mammoth grocery trip that I went on earlier.

Mum arrived yesterday and is taking very good care of me. She won't let me go out on my own (boo!) and she's helping me with things, but without making me feel stifled. It's lovely having my Mum here. At least now there's someone here to keep me company at hospital appointments and provide a shoulder when I need one.

The bad news is that there is a bit of bleeding again, but not much so hopefully I'm not losing badly. There is a lot of cramping, particularly when I eat, but heat pads help a lot with that. The cramping is getting worse, though, so I have a feeling that Mum will insist on an ER visit if they get intolerable way before I would dare to think about the ER. I'll have to see how the next couple of days go.

I've got a colonoscopy scheduled for Wednesday. That should give us some answers about what's going on. Hopefully the GI guy will see me a few days after it, to tell me the results, because it sounds like I'll be completely whacked out on sedatives. Maybe he'll be willing to give Mum some preliminary info on the day? I'll ask him and ask what I can do about the cramping because it's a bit intolerable.

I'm planning to go to work tomorrow, although Mum insists on driving me (she may have a point) and I may only be there part of the day and then I'll work from home. I'll have to work from home on Tuesday due to the prep for the test on Wednesday and then I'll probably work from home on Thursday because I'm not sure how I'll feel. Friday will be played by ear.

The good news is that, while I haven't gained any weight, I haven't lost anything since Monday. I'm going to try to keep eating normally as much as possible so that I don't lose anything more.

It seems incredible that this time last week, I'd started to feel a bit better and thought I might be over the worst of whatever bug I'd had.

Comments

[nosila]

There's no such thing as "a bit intolerable". Seriously, after having that much blood put into you just last week, I'd have you back to ER already! What's your mum's number? Oh wait, I bet Lesley has it and has already called her to tell her to take you to the ER!

*glomp*

[fahrenheit-f430.livejournal.com]

People don't Nearly Die then go back into a work less than a week later. *panicked flail*

I fully support any means and measures your mum may employ to make sure you take proper time getting better, including cattle prods and tranquillising darts. *narrows eyes*

Re: *glomp*

[selenay]

Believe me, nobody will be letting me overdo things! I really want to talk to my manager and HR, though, to get some idea of what the plan can be and talk through what will be happening over the next few days. Mum will be insisting on driving me and she'll probably insist that I come home midday. My colleagues are all lovely and I doubt they'll let me stay beyond my tolerances as well.

When I'm not curled up with cramps, it's hard to believe that there's anything wrong. I think that's why I'm having trouble taking it easy and accepting that I need help for a while.

Re: *glomp*

[fahrenheit-f430.livejournal.com]

GOOD!

The main worry I have about you is when you're away - even home working - you start doing the internet equivalent of grinding your teeth in nervous anticipation of the myriad coding fuckups that await you on your return. So, STOP THAT!

When I'm not curled up with cramps, it's hard to believe that there's anything wrong.

I know the feeling. Listen to your mum, your colleagues, your boss etc, just DON'T listen to your body. I was in college 2 weeks after neurosurgery 'cause there was Nothing Wrong With Me - 6 weeks later my lack of rest and the stress overdose caught up with me. My body does not learn. It's done this to me on 2 other hospitalisation-level issues. So, don't listen to the 'I'm fiiiine' side of your brain - IT LIES! *glomp*

[feather-autant.livejournal.com]

I think the bug is called 'not enough oxygen carrying capacity'. And yeah, it makes you feel icky, as you well know.

I hope they find and fix the hole! There shouldn't be any blood! You can't afford to lose what you have. A 9.9 Hgb is still really, really low.

Take care and let us know how you're doing! ::is worried::

[selenay]

I went to work and stayed until lunchtime before coming home to work from my sofa :-) It all went well.

I'm looking forward to finding the hole and figuring out how to plug it. There's much less blood than there was, so my poor abused Hgb shouldn't be dropping too quickly, but I now know that any blood is too much when I'm this low and I'd prefer not to need another top up :-(

Re: *glomp*

[selenay]

So, STOP THAT!

I shall try! I actually enjoyed playing with data and proving myself right on a knotty problem that I've been trying to identify this for the last two weeks :-)

DON'T listen to your body

I was listening to my body initially, telling the doctors and getting dismissed. Part of the problem was doctors not listening to me :-( And then my body got used to it all and it didn't give me the right signals. I'm listening to everyone now and trying not to ignore what my body is telling me now.

My brain is the bit going "you're fiiine", so that's what I'm trying to ignore :-)