Possible incoherent rambling

[selenay]

I'm waiting for the painkillers to kick in so that I can get some sleep. Hydrotherapy made me a little achey. Hopefully that's a sign that it's doing what it should *g*

Tomorrow is another lazy-ish day. I've stupidly committed to making pancakes for all for breakfast. Daft me. But pancakes and maple syrup just seems like such a nice, indulgent, holiday-ish thing to do and I'm itching to try out the Aunt Jemima's mix that mom bought me. 'Cos it's *really* crazy to expect me to make the things without that kind of aid.

Then we're going to a horse rescue place so that I my aunt can look at horsies. We can pat them and feed them Polos. And I wanna see the cute little Shetland ponies.

Possibly we could have a girlie movie night afterwards.

I have made a decision this week. Next month, on the 17th, I'm going to reactivate my profile on the job websites. I won't start actively looking yet, but if people happen to find me and offer me interviews I won't refuse them. 'Cos I feel relaxed and happy for the first time in months and I know that it's my job that's been getting me down. Yes, the whole 'being in massive pain all the time' thing ain't helping, but I'd be a little less crabby about it if I were actually a little happier in my work. And that means location as well as company and job type - I want something closer to home, not in retail and more programming less data anaylst. Because I'm a damn good programmer and it's time that I allowed myself to believe it. This current job was never going to be ideal, but the combination of factors is making it way, way below ideal. If it was closer, I could cope with the retail crap and not doing stuff that I really enjoy, if it was a job and company that I liked then I could cope with the commute. But having both elements suck is...well, I'm going to make myself available again. I said that I'd stick it out for a year before re-thinking, but I really can't. So, six months is my marker. I'll see how long after that I last before I start doing the active looking thing.

I think the drugs are starting to kick in...

Comments

[feather-autant.livejournal.com]

*encourages you* It really sucks when you hate almost one third of your life! You deserve to find something more suitable. *nods* So go for it! You never know what's out there unless you look. *fingers crossed*

[selenay]

*g* Thanks for the encouragement! With the commute and the overtime that the hell hole regards as a standard part of my working day, it ends up being closer to half my life at work - no wonder I'm feeling stressed being in that situation. Setting a deadline gives me time to work on my CV and make sure that I'm selling myself well this time and I feel better for having made the decision.

Even though I do hate job hunting. But for now, I'm just making myself available for any opportunities that may arise. I'll probably start actively hunting a couple of months from now :-)